I have exactly nine days of school left.

CAN YOU FREAKIN BELIEVE IT??

I am so close to being done with school that I feel light-headed and a little sick. And I think I am excited until I think about being an adult and having responsibility and then I am like...

*takes a moment to think.* "No."

It isn't just graduating either. See, I have a plan. It is a terrifying plan. At the end of the summer I am planning to move off the hill with my brother and nanny for his kids. And take an acting class at a big college. With other actors. And I have to learn to drive. And it scares the crap out of me, because WHAT IF I FAIL?? AND WHAT IF THIS IS THE WORST PLAN EVER?? AND AM I REALLY MOVING SO SOON????????

I'm overwhelmed.

Luckily I wont be too far from home so I will be able to visit pretty often, but I'm still freaked out. I need lots of prayers, especially about my driving. Y'all need to pray I can learn to drive by August. 

My brother is all...

I believe in you!

and I'm like

This is too much

I love my brother. He is very excited for me. He just wants me to be happy and act and do stuff on broadway and he is so incredibly supportive. Like, really supportive. Really really supportive. Like, LET ME HELP YOU LIVE YOUR DREAM! WE CAN DO ALL THE THINGS!

And I kind of go... "Okay. But maybe uhm... slow down a little?"

Did I mention I love my brother? Cause I do. A lot. 

Okay that is out of the way. I want to ride my bike every day this summer, so today I took my first bike-ride of the year. LOL. That was funny. I didn't take a long ride because I knew I wouldn't be used to bike riding, but even though I took a short ride I still came back with my legs wobbly. And they wanted to kick out when I walked. It was weird. I forgot how weird it was to walk after riding for the first time in months. You feel disconnected from yourself. 

Jelly legs!!

 Guess what else today is!! Today is May 6th. For some reason it sounded familiar and I thought this must be some significant day. So I looked it up and I figured out why it sounded familiar. On May 6th, 1541 King Henry the VIII ordered that a bible be placed in every church in England. Applaud me, I am a giant nerd. How did I know that? I have no idea. 

Apparently it May sixth is also the date that the NY to SF footrace began. But that happened in 1929. And on this same day in 1604, the Spanish poet Leon VII published his first poem.

You learn something knew every day don't you?

I am currently studying for finals, writing out the history of my fictional world and making a new video to the Eleventh Doctor. I am also reading The Conspiracy of Kings and feeling a severe lack of Eugenides. But I like Sophos. Sophos is great. Sophos is brilliant. Sophos is not Eugenides. And he doesn't try to be. I thank him for that because he is good as just Sophos. 

SOPHOS HO! 

Time for me to scamper off. OH! One last thing! Treskie over at Occasional Randomness  is doing a giveaway! you should check it out. It's pretty cool. 

With that I am gone! PEACE OUT Y'ALL!

*slides off car*

Bella

"I don't want to touch the world! Its not sanitary!"

I went to work for the first time today.

I have discovered Three things.

One: I may be more on the extrovert side but I definitely have some introvert in me and I did not like being away from home for four hours. With the public. It was not fun.

Two: I don't like making sandwiches. It makes me nervous and flustered and my hands shake.

Three: If it wasn't for Disneyland I wouldn't be doing this.

I kept reminding myself this is my first day. it will get better. It will get better. It will get better. I think a lot of the anxiety was because I have never done anything like this before. EVER. And when I get nervous I forget stuff. Stuff I usually know up down and sideways. Its why I don't test well. And when I was making sandwiches I'd forget things. And then I'd get more nervous.

The first couple hours were the worst. I was so anxious and I kept worrying that I wasn't getting anything right. But as it went on I got a little better. I wasn't calm or anything but I didn't feel like crying every time I got a piece of bread out. I kept shouting BUCKY! and DISNEYLAND!! in my head to keep my courage up. And.... I think for a first time thing I did pretty well. I told myself this while waiting outside the shop for my ride to come take me home. I was only there four hours. I am still learning the ropes. I can do this. I am the Master Commander!

Then my sister came and I kind of unloaded all my pent up nerves on her and she was awesome and took me out for coffee cause big sisters do that sort of thing. And then I came home and fried my brain on pinterest and tried not to think.

My first day at work.

A little awful.

A little stressful.

A little okay.

I think I can do this.

FOR DISNEYLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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After Pinterest I happened into my room and leaped on to the bed. And I was pleasantly surprised to find it was squishy. SQUISHY! Like, sooooooft. As in I sunk into it. That has never happened. Ever.

Our Mattress sucks.

I was contemplating how this phenomenon had happened and when I remembered my mom had gone off the hill this morning. I got really excited and peaked under the covers to see if my theory was right. It was. Guys?? I have memory foam!!!!

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I'm going to have lots of fun with this. Lots of fun. Every time someone comes into my room.

 

"Hey, I have memory foam...." Then I will laugh to myself because I am so funny and clever to have made that reference.

 

I have to write tonight and that means a short post. I'm sorry it can't be helped. I will try to post for real tomorrow, I will. BUT GUYS! I AM ONLY 3,000 WORDS AWAY FROM 50,000!!!!!!

 

I'm going to try to reach that tonight.

Which is why I am going, leaving you with such a feeble, boring post. I'm doing NaNo! Deal with it!


GOD BLESS Y'ALL! And thanks sooooooo much for your prayers. They are much appreciated :)

*Slides off Car*

 

 

Bella. 

I've been bit on my finger! It could've been my leg! It could've been my head, I might've died!

 

I have a job.

 

I have a job.

 

I HAVE A JOB!!

 

I did a follow-up interview at that sandwich place and SHE HIRED ME!!!! I come in on Tuesday at 11:15. She's going to start training me. Guys this is for real. Like, real. I have a real life, normal job.

 

I don't know what my emotions are doing. They've been going up and down like crazy ever since I got home. One minute I'm like.....



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The next minute I'm like.



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I was so freaked out you guys!!! I still am, a bit. I mean, that interview... Oh my gosh. I had this sick feeling in my stomach the whole time I was doing it. I mean, don't get me wrong. The lady was very nice and when it was finished she told me I had done well and she'd like to have me. Which was, ya' know, nice. But it still freaked me out. And once I got in the car I noticed my hands were shaking and I couldn't make them stop.



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The job is part time and that is good. that leaves time for school and NaNo (Am I crazy? Yes. I am a little crazy.) AND ABOUT NANO!!!!!! The worst thing happened to me last night. I think I am going to have to do something awful in part two. Something really, really awful.  And I am upset cause I love Dimitri. *Hides behind Pillow* Don't throw shoes at me! I am trying to help him! I am! But I don't think I can. That makes me depressed. I sulked and couldn't write. Instead I sat around thinking up more Bucky pain to help cope with the writing hurt.

 

I THOUGHT UP BUCKY PAIN TO HELP WITH WRITING HURT.

 

 

I am so messed up.

 

Speaking of Bucky pain!!!! I have a started another blog with a good buddy of mine. It was sort of spur-of-the-moment and we are still not sure what it's going to be like, but run over and check it out HERE. It should be pretty fun once we  actually get a feel for it.

 



That's all I have. Bonus points to anyone who can tell me what my title quote is from!!! Peace out and may the Fourth be with you. *Slides off Car*

 ~Ben-The-Robot~