"Don't do anything stupid until I get back." "How can I? You're taking all the stupid with you."

I am going to attempt Camp NaNo this month!!!!

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Why would I do such a thing, you ask. Well, ..... I'm not completely sure myself. In fact, I am a little concerned for my mental sanity. Not that I have much (if any) left. But there a method to my madness!!! I'm afraid that if I don't make myself finish my story it will never get done. It will become another half-finished-not-quite-masterpiece laying neglected and dusty in the rejects section under the bed. Also, I actually am in a "I should write" faze, so I need to inflict pain while I have the motivation. I pulled my story out and went through it and have discovered several plot holes and plot jumps. I also have trouble writing "in between" moments. Those are hard, just in case you want to know. Two of my characters have also had a slight name-change. Tyrone is now Tyson and Annamaria is now Annemarie. I'm not sure when either of them decided to have and identity crisis, but its done now and I actually prefer it this way. Most of my characters have also changed a good deal since the last time I posted about them, which means more tweaking. The story on the whole has changed a lot. But the essentials are still there which is why I want to finish it so badly. I know I am the kind of writer who needs a push, and after my lovely friend agreed to do Camp NaNo I jumped into the challenge with little much excitement. And to freak myself out even more, I decided that at the end of the month I am going to start posting sneak peeks all throughout the month and at the end I will give you a book update! That way I can't cheat!! *screams*

This is why I don't like the new Peter Parker

 So... No more Pinterest? Well, less pinterest. Less youtube. I've had to cut back and those anyway because of school. Oh yeah, another reason this is such a mad idea - I AM TRYING TO FINISH SCHOOL THIS MONTH!!! I am trying to finish school, write a book and get a job all in the same four weeks.


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Madness, you say?? No no, this is not madness! this is.... this is.....!

Okay. Maybe it is a little mad. But that doesn't mean it can't be done does it?

Now I'm off. I'm going to edit and go crazy and laugh at all you social  people who have lives.

~Ben the Robot~

In which I share lyrics.

This is going to be kind of quick, but... Here's the thing. I've been doing too much editing. And I cried last night because my book isn't half done anymore. And I don't really want to write at the moment because I did something terrible and now when I try to write I cry. Which sucks. So last night, while editing, I pulled up a song I was working on a few days ago. I was inspired to finish it and now I have all the lyrics written out. Its still kind of rough, and I feel really self-conscious doing this, but oh well. I'm going to share the song with you! O.o And Because I'm a freak, I'm going to post fandom pictures along side the lyrics, because my fandoms were what started the song in the first place.

I Present Nothing Left To Take - (For lack of a better title at the moment)

The World Falls Into Darkness, The Stars show no more Light

The Pain and Loss start sinking in, And grief Blinds your sight

All Hell Breaks Loose

I can hear you in the silence, I can Feel you in the Dark

My destiny, It Haunts Me, My weakness It Does Mock.

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But the Demons in the Shadows, Should know before they Attack
I have nothing left to lose, And nowhere to turn back.

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So Break Me, I wont Shatter!

Cut me, I won't Bleed!

Tear Me, I won't rip apart!

I Know I'm not a hero, I know What I have Done

But here I am, You can't defeat Me,

I have already Won!

Swan Song

You can't take Away, When There's Nothing Left To Take

You can't break a Spirit, When there's Nothing Left to Break

So do Your Worst, Take Your Shot

I'll Stand it all, I wont be stopped!!

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Divide Me

Conquer me,

Take Every Piece of My Heart.



I'm Desperate, I'm ashamed, I have No One Else To Blame

I Know I'm no Hero, But Maybe,

Maybe I can Be Saved. 

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I'm Just a Wounded Soldier, A Warrior with No Sword

But if You know My Name, then Perhaps You have heard!!! -

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You can Break Me, I wont Shatter!

Cut me, I won't Bleed!
Tear me, I won't Rip apart.
I won't Rip
Apart.



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That's the rough gist of it. I know it has a lot to be brushed up on, especially the ending, but I felt its good enough to share with all of you .... and maybe ask for feedback? I did this mostly to challenge myself. I have a lot of trouble opening up and letting my writing be read by anyone other than VERY CLOSE family, and even they don't often get peaks at it. So this is my way of making myself share my work. (This is also my way of trying to psych myself up to sharing snippets. LOL.)

What do you think? Too bland? Too cliché? Or... Amazing? I'd love some thoughts.

This is so scary.

This makes me so nervous.

I don't like this.

I need to go before I delete this post.

BYE!!!!

~Ben The Robot~