Tuesday, September 26, 2017

My Thoughts on "Dear Evan Hansen."


Dear Evan Hansen is a musical about a high-school boy with severe social anxiety. A boy who loses a classmate to suicide. A boy who tells a lie. A boy who finds himself lost in the turmoil of that lie. A boy who looses and falls. A boy who rises again and finds hope in the future.





I first heard of DEH some months ago. Since I thought it was about suicide and that is a topic that usually gets glorified or white-wash suicide, I was a little wary of it. But I looked it the album and quite liked it. So on a whim I found the bootleg online and watched it.




It turns out today wasn't a great day....





It was good. it was really good. I understand why so many people love it. It has themes that most people relate to on several levels. Loneliness, depression, anxiety, emptiness, fear, isolation, you name it. All that stuff. There aren't many musicals with a Teen as the lead, so for teenagers to finally have characters their age on Broadway is a big deal. Especially such a relatable teen.







I surprise myself by liking the story as much as I did. It had a good message about hope. About accepting yourself, flaws and all, about hanging on even when you feel like letting go. I think that's an important message for young people to hear, especially in these troubling times.





I quite like Evan. He was sweet, awkward, and thoughtful. But he was also human with flaws; Like, being an opportunist and a liar. I liked that the writers didn't make his anxiety or insecurity into an excuse for his bad decisions. It wasn't like, "He has social anxiety and low self-esteem, so he couldn't help needing a family or making stupid, damaging choices in order to get it." They acknowledged that he was in the wrong, even if his intentions were good. He hurt people and that wasn't right. Even if he just wanted to be loved or accepted or whatever. I liked that little message because so often people say "I couldn't help doing such-and-such a thing it just had to be that way." Um, no. There is always a choice in these matters. It's important for people to know that just because you're suffering, have mental issues, or are living in bad circumstances, it doesn't mean have free reign to do bad, or potentially harmful things to yourself or those around you.







"I try to speak but nobody can hear."






The soundtrack was good. It wasn't staggering like Secret Garden or A Tale of Two Cities, but it was still full of amazing lyrics, melodies, and emotional moments. It definitely had it's own sound which was nice. It was unique, different, and boldly NOT like every other musical out there. (Is it just me or do a lot of musicals have that generic "Broadway" sound to them? Kind of annoying...)  The only song I didn't care for was Sincerely Me. Evan's "friend" has a dirty little mind and says inappropriate things, making it awkward for everyone. So I just skip that song. 8-D It's not all that important.





The cast was great. I loved Ben Platt as Evan, though I sometimes thought he got a little loud. But since it was a more modern score, meant to sound 'in the times' the power in the cast and the music didn't bother me. It fit the story. It was a little bit like Ghost in regard to sound and feel. It's not like the musicals I usually collect, but I'd like to own it and would certainly recommend it to anyone who likes musical theatre. The characters were good aside from Jared (whom I really didn't like, to be honest.) They all had things I could empathize with. Especially Zoe. I loved Zoe's character. I would like to play her someday. She is such a forgotten sort of girl with quite the load of emotional baggage. My heart went out to Zoe, especially during the song "Requiem." She's had it rough, poor thing.  Her relationship with Connor was a bad one. I'm not sure how bad he was since we don't get to seem them interact that much, but it was bad enough. Like, he sounds kind of abusive. (AND THEY DON'T EXCUSE THAT!)











The suicide element was tough, but I thought they handled it as well as can be expected. I definitely appreciated it more than 13 Reasons Why, simply because instead of Connor striking out for revenge he just snapped one night. And yeah, I hate that it happened and I hate that Connor would do something like that, but it handled the topic better than 13 Reasons Why. It gave the same message in a healthier, more powerful way.


I felt Connor's story was more sympathetic. Like, maybe if he had someone, if he'd reached out, things could have been different. He could have chosen hope. He was still wrong and I still hate it but his death was sadder. And the script was discreet enough that you can't be sure about Connor's state of mind or intention. In Evan Hansen's first performances there was a song - later cut from the Broadway edition- that talked about "missing pills and a missing kid..." And since Connor had a problem with drugs and getting high, there is a fair chance he didn't mean to kill himself. He just felt like crap and accidentally went too far. There's also a chance he wasn't stable enough to make a choice like that with his full understanding or will, since he apparently struggled with mental problems. As a Catholic I personally found that positive, because if it wasn't premeditated and if Connor was mentally ill, than his soul has a chance.





And yes, I get too invested in fictional people. 8-P


If only they'd found each other sooner. Maybe they could have helped each other....







Something else I liked about this show is when Evan went to adults for help, he actually got help! AND THAT IS A POSITIVE THING! Kids need to know they're going to get support from the people above and around them. They need to know that when they talk about mental issues, anxiety, depression, fear, abuse, and so forth, they're going to have support from people around them. And even if people don't listen at first, even if you are alone, that doesn't mean you will always be alone. That's important. That's something I was exploring in my own musical before I even listened to DEH. Like, don't give up on the future!!! Even if you're broken, lonely, scared, lost, forgotten, that doesn't mean you will always be that way. Just because you're alone right now, that doesn't mean you won't ever have anything in the future. It doesn't mean you won't someday have better friends, a better home, better circumstances, a better life. There is every possibility that you will have all those things and more. There's always reason to hope.*




*At the very least you can hope for heaven. :-)









The one word of warning I would give is that the fan-base (especially on Tumblr) is pretty kinky. You get a lot of sexual, dirty thoughts in regard to the story and characters in it. Kind of like Johnlock fans. *hides face* The musical itself is clean and has very little to frown at besides Jared, but the fans can be seriously dirty and inappropriate. Obviously there are nice, normal fans too, who are like, "No, Evan is straight..." but just heads up.  8-D It's like any other fandom out there, you have weird fans.


If you like Musical Theatre and emotional stories, I would definitely recommend this musical. I believe you can watch it somewhere online, but if you don't feel safe going on weird sites, the full album is on youtube, complete with Dialogue 8-)



So let the sun come streaming in, cause you'll reach up and you'll rise again!






*swings around cape and leaps off stage laughing*



Bella



Saturday, August 26, 2017

Let's Be Brave

I have decided to be very, very brave and share a little bit about the musical I have been working on since January of last year. That's a long time folks. I think if I start blogging about it, I might actually finish it before January of this year. At least a first draft. 

Let's Be BraveI first got the idea for Let's Be Brave when I listened to the "Weight of Us," waaaaaaay back in August of 2016. I loved the line, "Time has come, let us be brave." I thought that was very inspiring and in the back of my mind a seed was planted. I have this thing with bravery. I think if you just have courage, you can get through anything. So, when my mind presented me with a title and a bare idea of a young girl who decides to be brave in times of hardship, I grasped at it. I began to plot, to diagram, to write.  

What is Let's Be Brave? It is a musical about children from broken families/broken homes, who find each other and through their friendships, are able to find courage amidst  suffering. They start a "Let's Be Brave" Club.

My musical so far focuses on five/six different children. 1.) Violet, Emily, Jamie(?) Tonia, May, and Charlie.

Each character suffers from some kind of abuse, grief, low self-esteem, anxiety, hardship, or suffering. The premise of the story is that when you are faced with tribulation, you mustn't give into it, but instead rise above your bad situation. Whatever happens, you must learn to soldier on.  I am still in the rough draft of this musical, and character may change or shift as time goes on. But I thought it was best to get this out there once and for all, because this post has been sitting in my drafts since the beginning of July and that's sad.

I have an unhealthy fear of people stealing my ideas, so I'm not sure how much I will post about this musical at first. But you will get updates! I plan to start sharing more about all the musicals I'm working on - including the Howl one - and maybe even starting a Youtube channel for them.

*SCREAMS FOREVER*

And guys, I promise there is an Evan Hansen review coming soon. I'm sorry it's taking so long. I can't seem to find time to blog.

God Bless everyone! Hope to talk again soon!



*swings around cape and leaps off stage*



Bella

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

The Solar Eclipse


Oh, pale is the moon!
Oh bright is the sun!
Oh, how magnificent,
These masters of the sky!
But alas I say,
Oh, how melancholic they are!
Always passing, like ghosts in the night
Forever watching, as the other takes flight,
Though they love each other
They cannot touch
Though they share the same sky
They cannot even brush.
Not for a second at all
For as soon as the moon rises, the sun must fall!

They balance the world and keep the tranquility
These masters of nature, like a King and a Queen
But such a sad couple, these patriarchs are,
That cannot hold hands
That cannot embrace....
What might weep to think on it.

For the sun shines so bright so the moon may live,
And the moon takes her vigil so the sun may rest
And each love the other, as no mortal man knows,
But each must watch his spouse,
From the other side of the world 

But stay a moment friends! Not all is sad today
Today we had a miracle, one rarely seen.
The universe granted it's flickering lights
A rare and precious gift,
The God in heaven granted His children,
A present most jubilant!
A phenomenon of nature, created in the sky
A precious, singular episode, in the morning light.
The sun came across the sun and sat at his side,
At last the patriarchs of balance path's had aligned.

And they danced together, in the noon day sky
For as long as the heavens would allow
A beautiful dance, a slow dance,
To brilliant to be seen by the unshielded eye.

The moon got so close to her mate,
He nought could be seen, not by the earth or sea,
Until at last it came time for the moon to bid farewell.

The two shared a soft embrace, hard to understand
 And the moon promised the sun 
That she would come again
For God in His goodness set up the skies
To make possible such meetings
Not once, not twice, but many  times,
would the sovereigns entwine. 

It might take many years, days and days of yearning,
But in the end, the sun and moon,
Will always cross, will always come together 
For just as a mate cannot stay long from her man
Just a Shepherd can't stay long from His lamb,
And Just as God can't stay long from us,
The Sun and the moon cannot long,
Stay apart. -
Written by Isabella DeLallo 8/21/2017



This is a poem I wrote after witnessing the Solar Eclipse yesterday.  It was supposed to be posted last night, but... Ya' know how that goes. It was completed last night anyway. :-) It could use some editing but otherwise I think it's okay.  (Hopefully.)


*swings around cape and leaps off stage*




Bella

Monday, July 31, 2017

Nature Walk and some (okay?) pictures!


I went on a lovely nature walk yesterday. Summer is glorious, and the day seemed to call to me to adventure. 

I took my bike and went down the the meadow for a snack and a walk. Guys! I'm so happy I went. Everything was alive with bird song and rustling leaves, the smell of pine, and the feeling of summer at it's climax. It was so gorgeous! I attempted to take a few pictures. I know they're not that great but I hope you'll enjoy them anyway.


I can not capture light. I need a better camera 8-( 



For some reason my camera wouldn't focus on the thistles, which was sad. Trust me when I say they were lovely, swaying in the wind.


 I see trees of greeeeeeen. (see that one in the middle? It looks like the fire fairies 
have made a home among it's branches!)


 I loved how these flowers looked against the others. It reminded of of flame in winter. Unfortunately my stupid camera wouldn't pick up the contrast that well. 8-(


 And from the harshness of winter and the beating of rainstorms, 
comes a staggering, tiny speck of beauty.


 This picture just seemed aethstetically pleasing.... 8-D


 And the stars came down from heaven to make a comely flowerbed on earth...


 *sigh* the world is so pretty.


 I was trying to get a picture of the bluebells, but dang it, my camera suuuucks!


 Summer, summer, in the golden afternoooooon!





LALALALLA I still can't take good selfies ....


I really like the starflowers. What can I say.



So, there are the best of my pictures. I hope you liked them, and that they gave you a glimpse of the gorgeous landscape God gave me to grow up in. God is good y'all, and His world is full of His staggering, breathtaking beauty.


Stay safe and stay free.
Don't let trials chain you down 
 Don't be weighted with fear so you drown
When the world seems to be crazy, step outside and see
The waterfalls are bigger
than the tears in your heart
the stars are brighter than your shattered parts
the world is better than sorrow paints it
there is still such beauty
in those hidden, unlikely places

-Still beautiful, Bella DeLallo                                      

God Bless! Remember to look for the good in this world, and think of the glory in the next.


*swings around cape and jumps off stage*


Bella

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Things I love, and other stuff.


I love it when the grass is dewy and the air is soft.

I love summer so freaking much.


I love it when I make muffins and the come out soft and yummy.

They even had chocolate chips in them


I love it when I get up in the morning, and the sun is shining, and the air is cool.

I want adorable lil' animal friends that help me with setting out flowers, and other household chores.


I love it when I spend the afternoon writing and I actually get stuff done. Not just editing but REAL WRITING! *ecstatic*

rewarding myself on a job well done.

I love it when my adopted brother brings over ice cream because he knows we've all had a long week, and we watch Leverage and forget about our problems.

Elliot


I love it when I go swimming and all my troubles float away with the waves. All that matters is the water, and the wind. I feel so light when I go swimming. Its great.

"Darling it's better down where it's wetter, take it from meeeeee!"

I love it when I go to the library and bring home a books that are good.


#Ingo


I love having tea at night.


This gif might be from Beyond the Boundary, (EW) but it's still very accurate.

I love it when I listen to beautiful music which makes the world better.

You are loved more than you know....though your heart is far too young
to realize the unimaginable light you hold inside.


I love it when I find a new musical and it hits an emotional achy place in my heart.

I'm not actually obsessed with this musical, it was just nice to finally
find a musical that was clean and touching, and actually, you know, good.

Speaking of new musicals, I recently watched Dear Evan Hansen, and I now have Waving through a Window feels.

I try to speak but nobody can hear....


Update: I need to not listen to Waving Through a Window within the same hour I listen to I can't Recall. THINGS happen.

Carton gives me sads.


Update number two: I'm such a A Tale of Two Cities fangirl I made a blog just for that story/musical. Yep. I'm a nerd.

Update number three: It's really annoying when you have something like 200 songs to choose from on your music player, but somehow none of them are the one you want to listen to right now.


Update number four: I ACCIDENTALLY PUT A TALE OF TWO CITIES ON SHUFFLE AND IT PLAYED I CAN'T RECALL, IF DREAMS CAME TRUE AND LET HER BE A CHILD RIGHT IN A ROW. AND THAT WAS FAIRLY TRAUMATIZING.

Basically Carton's whole story in three songs.

I would say that gives "Hamilton's" Helpless-Burn-It's Quiet Uptown-Shuffle a run for it's money

Update number five: I should do a Shuffle Tag for all my musical. Just put each one on shuffle and post the first three songs that play on each. Interesting idea. Hmmmmmmmm.

Update number six: I started a timeline for my Let's be Brave musical. I will probably start posting about it soon. (?????) The outline is three pages long and I'm afraid. Lol.

Update number seven: Guys. Spiderman, Homecoming was fabulously great and I will own that greatness. Tom Holland was great. Peter was great. Michelle was great. Tony was great. Tony and Peter bonding and that adorable father/son relationship!! Yas. Ned in general. The villain. The *GAAAAAAAASP* scene! The "NO BEBE PETER!" scene. And of course, THAT SCENE. 


Kudos if you can guess what THAT SCENE is.


*squints at the top of my page* This post started out so deep. I got excited about Carton and forgot my list. *siiiiiigh* What a mess. Thanks for sticking with me guys! I better sign off before this mess becomes a message!

Yeah, that was lame.

A Dear Evan Hansen Review/Talk is on it's way.  Back soon. Love you all!


*Swings around cape and leaps off stage*'



Bella

PS: Should I start doing vlogs? I think I might.

Sunday, July 16, 2017

Spazz Update


I promised y'all an update, so I am here to up the date.



It has been a crazy 2017 so far. And I have felt like Stitch for most of it. I've barely had time to take a breather. So much has been going on, it's insane. One minute I'm up past midnight visit with my cousin, and the next minute I'm at a CIVIL WAR RE-ENACTMENT having the time of my freaking life.

We went to the Reenactment at the end of June and it was so much fun though. I have to thank my dear friend Jim for dragging me along. I joined her, my sister Kat, and our friend Eric for some of the best days of the summer. Yes, it was 107 one of the days, and  yes I was hot and tired and afraid of bug bites, but the experience was still a blast. I enjoyed it immensely. We were able to go into the Union and Confederate camps and talk with the different soldiers. While in reality I am very glad the Union one, since that's why we have The United States, during the Reenactment I found myself voting for the Confederates more often than not. (Actually, I understand both sides of that bitter war. Most people think it was just about slavery, but it was about so much more. State rights, and citizens rights, and government rights, and the fight for America's ideals. Most Confederates were fighting for the very beliefs the Founding Fathers set down in writing during the Revolutionary War.) ANYWAY. We made friends on the Confederate side while exploring the camps, and during one of the battles I caught glimpse of this spirited soldier in a green shirt that was full of attitude. I really wanted him to survive that battle. He was so in the game, full of insults for the enemy, and plenty of lip. (Like saying "SHOOT THE ONE THAT LOOKS LIKE YOUR SISTER!!! I'm pretty sure that was him.) He was shot down during the third battle and I was like, "No, little green man! Don't die!" I actually shouted really loud too. "You in the green shirt! DON'T GIVE UP!" He died at the fence though. I was into it to, I guess, cause I was like, "YOU'RE MEMORY WILL LIVE ON! YOU WON'T BE FORGOTTEN!" I was a little extreme. But hey, it was so much freaking fun.

Unfortunately I was having so much fun I didn't have much time for pictures, but here are a few.

Old-Time Singers!

 I was like, "Those microphones are not quite historically accurate." lol


Such Canons. Wow Explosions.


When the Canons went off my whole body shook. It was exhilarating.

Guys, the Confederate Flag was cool.


Aaaaand the Union flag. AMERICA!


RUN UNION GUYS! RUN!



When the Confederates charged the Union,  it was actually kind of scary.



If it hadn't been 106 outside I might have actually dressed up. 8-P



LINE UP!!!!

I was such a nerd on this trip, lol. I even bought a fife and a tiny canon from where of their historical shops. They had all sorts of cool odds and ends in there, like wax and a candle for envelopes, old fans, bonnets, and handbooks on guns at that time. It was interesting to just poke around and look at all their stuff. I had to leave quickly so as not to buy too much. We bought a peppermint stick as a ceremonial. By the end of the second day, most of the Reenactment people knew us. They thought we were great for sticking through the heat. They'd wave and grin because we were so into it. I think it made their day. We hung around tents, talked to soldiers, asked lots of questions... I think they were happy to have people so thrilled about history.

I can't go into detail because there was so much we did... like the camping, and driving an hour to find a place to swim at the end of the first day. Or trying to find wood in 100+ degree weather so we could have s'mores.

After this great experience, I'd love to go to a Revolutionary War reenactment somehow. That would be so epic!

Anywhere, there's a fun adventure update. I hope I'll see all you again real soon, as long as no big life events happen between now and then. God Bless!

PEACE OUT Y'ALL!


*swings around cape and leaps off stage*



Bella

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Oh, Hey Guys. *coughs*



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It's uh... it's been a while. Yeah. It's been a while.

I wish I had a great excuse for my absence. Unfortunately I have none except that I am an exhausted pigeon with no time on my hands.

Heh.

I had thought of doing a LIFE UPDATE, but that would take way too much time tonight. So instead I'll do a quick post on the big important thing that happened all June! My fabulous sister Laura, and her family came to visit at the beginning of this month. I hadn't see any of them in years so it was great to visit with them even though it was only for a few days.

My poor sister always chooses the coldest weekend of the month to come visit my family. I don't think she's every come out when it was actually warm. She has the worst luck. It had been in the 70's for the last few weeks, but Laura managed to come up the one weekend in June that dropped into the 30/40's. With a chance of snow. Despite the random winter weather, we had a lovely time, with lots of visiting and laughter.

All Laura's kids talk sloooowly. Not as slowly as they used to, granted, but they're still slower than my sisters and I (But we talk like the conversation is a race and the first one to the finish line gets ice-cream. So....)

We were up late every night they were here, taking pictures and catching up.

Le me with adorable nephew, Charlie:


Le Tall Bro. (And and a niece Jane.)



"Auntie Bellaaaaa, whaaat are you dooooin?"



"Memories, Lilly. Precious, Precious Memories!!"


Ah yis, my fabulous family.


HEY LOOK THIS SEFLIE IS ACTUALLY GOOD! Cause Treskie took it....


Justin told us about Kentucky, where people apparently still believe the world is flat. For real. It's not a joke. And there's the whole North/South divide still. And they probably still think asbestos is rad.

It was funny to hear him talk about it. 8-D


Le Mom be like, "THE EARTH IS ROUND!"


Nieces kept asking me to take pictures with them, even though my selfies look like a walrus got a hold of my camera.

Love you, Emily <3


Baby Peter loved his little brother, So much. It was adorable. If you could smother someone with love, Peter would smother. (And Peter is ADORABLE. FYI) 




WE ACTUALLY GOT A FAMILY PICTURE. I'm prolly going to print this out for meeeeeee.




Yet another disgusting Selfie. How does Treskie do it? (Love you, my nieces. Who cares if it's a bad picture? At least it's a picture. Right? Right.)


BEBE CHARLES IS SO CUTE.


LONG GAVIE HOLDING BEBE CHARLES IS ALSO SO CUTE. D'AAAAW.



Gavie interacting with kids in general is adorable. ( all the nieces and nephews got into his nature talks. It was adorable.)


"EEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeew! Sliiiiiime. Thaaat's Dis-gus-ting."


Look. A leaf! Oh my gosh!


(We had this nature walk down to this river, and Jane found these massive leaves, and she finally tore one off and did a full-on victory cry, and went charging off with it. Like, YAS, I AM CONQUEROR.)

Oooooooooh. Fish! (The one is the left. Do you see her? Do you see that girl? Do you see her? She's not mine. Not even related.)


Daddy Justin. <3

Cute Gavie. (AAAAACK.)


More selfies. Geeze.



FAMILY TREE PHOTO. BLESS.



So, that's my big story! This is a short post. SORRY!!! I'll try to do an "Update" post as soon as I have some down time. Many apologies to all my followers who watched me drop from the planet. 

God Bless!

Bella 

Pile of good things

Pile of good things