This is what it is like to have sisters.
You know another sisterly-thing that happened that night? I got a box!!!
Well, it was more a box addressed to several of my sisters. From a very dear friend (whom, by the way, is now my adopted sister, so she'd better get used to it) And she had sent us some very lovely gifts which I immediately slipped on and admired and swooned over. And I was suddenly wishing for a cold spell that I could show them off in.
For now I have to content myself with being a Writer in them, because I can't be an adventurer at the moment, as much as I'd like to be.
While waiting for the second book in The False Prince Trilogy I am finishing the Gallagher Girls series. Okay. I did not expect to get quite that emotional during these books. I mean, they were good but I didn't think I was that emotionally invested in them.
I was wrong.
And I shook.
And I couldn't believe the horrible things Cammie Morgan was going through and I wanted to leap in to the pages and hug her. And Liz. I feel really bad for Liz. And I like Zach. Zach is funny and idiotic and he drives you crazy. But he is awesome and he is better than Josh.
WHY ISN'T THERE EVER ANY FAN ART FOR THESE AMAZING BOOKS???? (Glowers-at-a-certain-sister*) I NEED FAN ART!! GIVE ME FAN ART!!!!
I also need to read the last book, but she's buried in it right now so I have to wait.
Why isn't my Sage book in yet? **headdesk**
and guess what!! I have tons of school work to get done before June. Lots and lots. Which means I haven't been writing. *Cringe* I know. I'm a terrible person. I tried writing today, but it didn't work out. I have way too many Steve and Bucky feels to function. I don't know why I thought it was such a grand idea to watch Bucky die again after the trauma of Winter Soldier, but now it was WAY WORSE after you know what is coming.
I was literally in pain every time Bucky appeared on screen. I wanted to jump in and save him and protect him and make sure he never gets hurt again. But I can't.
Why am I am so obsessed with fictional characters?? Its not fair! Especially since the characters I love are always getting maimed or murdered or worse. INCLUDING MY OWN!!! I think my fandoms are rubbing off on me. I wrote something so terrible I haven't been able to write for a week. Every time I try to I cry. And that's no a joke. I even cried at the writing group. I think I'm too emotionally invested in my story. AND MY FANDOM FEELS AREN'T HELPING!! I will write, and then backspace, and then write, and then backspace.... and then I give up and type feverishly that Bucky has lost his memories and the Doctor has changed and Sam and Dean aren't brothers and Thor thinks Loki is dead and Sherlock is on HIATUS, and Sage is ...... and Cammie is..... and NEAL IS DEAD AND I CAN NOT COPE!
I am 99% done with Once Upon a Time. I don't think I've ever been this upset with a TV show... ever. Not even when its done by Moffat. They killed my favorite character and the only reason I'm still watching it is because my little sister LOVES it and can't bear to be without it.
and I also miss Rumple and Belle. I think their story is enough that I will finish OUAT for them.... but it almost isn't worth it, even FOR them. Because I know now that HE is dead, the other thing will happen that I hate so much and two people are going to get together and I didn't want them together and it makes me mad.
I need a life.
On the Upside, I got a lot of really lovely comments after publishing my lyrics. And that made me very happy. So thank you, all you nice people. It was good to get some motivational swing. You are all lovely and made me feel like I can write, even if it is just a little.
About the writing. I want to do Camp NaNoWriMo and try to get my blasted book done in a month. But before I do that I need to finish school. Which means I need to stop gettind distraced while studying and actually do stuff. Not that I DON'T do stuff. Just... I should be doing MORE stuff. and I don't. Because I'm getting the Spring Mood and am getting very School-burnt-out. I have to keep reminding myself "This is 11th grade.... I'm almost done...." But its hard. So If I don't post for a few days, know it is with good reason.
That's all. Peace out loosers!
~Ben the Robot~