Saturday, February 22, 2014

Introduction to Characters

For the past week I've been on a temporary hiatus in my writing world. Not because I had finished the book (haha) but because I wrote something so emotionally devastating that I couldn't write at the moment. I actually couldn't talk about my story without choking up. It was ridiculous. On top of that, my fangirl feels have a bad tendency to sneak into my writing and after the terrible Season Finale's I've been through, I thought it best to take a breather. So I did. And I still kind of am. While waiting for my nerves to settle, I will introduce you all to my main characters of the story. Please enjoy.


I had a lot of trouble finding someone who could place Michael. This character still isn't right but he was as close as I could get. Michael actually has dark, curly hair which always look in need of a brushing, and his face is also a bit softer, less hard around the edges. But you get the general idea, yes? So, Michael is my absolute FAVORITE character and one whom I have taken a lot of time embellishing. He is a Warlock from Ambria. He always looks for the very best in people and tends to be a bit naive when it comes to the existence of evil in the world. He knows there is evil of course, he just doesn't understand why anyone would choose hate when there is so much to love. He's very optimistic and lighthearted and he is always trying to fix the world. He is incredibly loyal very quickly and he isn't one to give up on you. He's forgiving, but you should don't push him to hard. There is a great strength hidden beneath his quiet manner.

Annamaria is a Guardian, which means she is able to communicate and gain favor with mythical creatures such as dragons, griffins, flying horses and Mistriders. She's spunky and quirky and she never runs from a fight. Since the loss of her brother, she has a hard time opening up to people and can come off as cold but she's really just scared to let down her walls. Contrary to popular belief, she is often afraid and insecure - she just does a very good job of hiding it.

 Peregrin is a Fey from the woods of Ambria. He's a bit of a black sheep when it comes to his kind, especially because he spent so much time with his Master Agime. He considers himself a rebel and doesn't seem too ashamed about it either. He's mischievous and playful but he's a strong leader, though he doesn't much like the idea OF leading. That's too bad for him because, being the only one who really knows what's going on, he has to be a leader whether he likes it or not.


It took me a long time to find some Tyson-like but I finally decided he looks a bit like this, excet younger. To be honest, Tysone is my least favorite character. He is very selfish and self-serving. He avoids danger whenever he can. he doesn't like taking risks or taking a stand and, overall he's a bit of a jerk. There is a lot of anger and bitterness buried in him, and because of that he pushes people away and doesn't make friends easily. Actually, he doesn't make friends period. He's really hard to get along with. He isn't completely bad - though he does seem pretty lost at first - but he ....He's annoying and frustrating. I don't like him.

I saved Dimitri and Nightly for last because, sadly enough, I couldn't find anyone like them. So I am going to cheat. *Mwahahaha!*

Dimitri and Nightly

This picture is in reference to the chapter labeled "Bandits" when you first encounter the brothers. Believe it or not, this is the picture that got me writing United, so I owe it a lot. Plus its super cool. *ehem* Back to Dimitri and Nightly. Dimitri is the elder one, he is about seventeen or eighteen and the oldest of the group besides Peregrin. He's protective and strong-willed and has a very set outlook on life. His younger brother Nightly is a trickster, he enjoys playing games, breaking the rules, and accepting dares. He isn't cruel or sly, just quick, clever and mischievous. He and his brother are very close and there is nothing they wouldn't do to help each other.
These six characters must come together to stop the oncoming war, the Second Rise of the Kilfar and a conspiracy so deeply set in their kingdom is may be impossible to break. There will be trial. there will be betrayal. and there will be a time when no one knows what is true. But can these strangers, this band of misfits and runaways, come together and save all of the United?
That's all you guys!!! See you later-ish: Hopefully

God Bless!

Friday, February 14, 2014

February the Fourteenth


Oh Grumpy Cat, I know! I acknowledge your pain.

I'm really tired and frazzled so this post might not be well put together or proper, but whatever. I don't care. I posted and that's what matters.

Actually this this Valentines Day was pretty good. It was one of the best Valentines Days I've had in ever. See, usually Valentines Day falls during Lent so we're fasting and unable to do much celebrating of any kind, but today, for the first time since I can remember, Valentines Day came BEFORE Lent.

We were able to make cookies and actually EAT them. We were able to bring out the chocolates and coffee and feast, and that has never happened before. The only downside was that it fell on a Friday, so no meat, but the sweets made up for it.

Here, have a peak at what my festive spirit created.


Yeah, it was fun. We listened to a bunch of music, drew, wrote and baked. Well, my sisters drew and wrote. I baked and tried to forget the horrible thing I'm doing to Michael. Michael doesn't deserve that.

Guys, I really need to introduce you to this character Michael. He's was set my story off. I really must introduce you all to him.

All in all, I had a nice day. I count myself fortunate because, unlike others I know, I don't really get the "Valentine Mood." I figure, if I meet someone I'll get married but I'm not just gonna sit around waiting for that. I'm going to go in theater, become and actress and pray that God works it out. I'm happy with my idea for the future, and yes I'm on sixteen and maybe next year I'll feel differently, but Right now I am okay. I'm not opposed to meeting someone - in fact I quite like the idea and I hope I do. But I'm not going to center my whole life around it.

That being said, Valentines Day does bring out my Shipping Feels. I'm gonna share a song and put the lyrics to a few fictional couples of whom I have become Especially fond. Enjoy :D


We were Strangers,
Starting out on a Journey

Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are, and I'm suddenly standing
 at the beginning with you. 

This song is so sweet and it always gets me into the Valentines Day feel. It reminds me of just about all my ships, especially Oliver and Felicity. - Here I am also going to note it reminds me of an especially adorable couple I have recently fallen in love with. - Peter and Darcy -

No one told Me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
when I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start.
I love these two. So very much.

And that's all. I'm done.


Friday, February 7, 2014

Crazy? I prefer Mentally Hillarious

One of the best things I've ever experienced is opening a book for the first time, reading all day with no stops, and finishing it before bed. Those are the type of books I tend to cherish the most and the ones I feel the best connections with. But it sucks because they're over so quickly and then you're on a high for weeks afterward. I've hit that point. Not only have I finished The Thief series, the Percy Jackson series and am just about done with Diana Wynn Jones, but I'm also on a temporary hiatus with every fandom I have.
This means I'm going a bit crazy. I mean, more than usual. I find myself sporadically consumed with feels and wild jumps of fangirl energy. I haven't felt like this since .... Since Merlin ended. I suddenly understand Anderson.

The upside to this is that my mixed emotion and traumatized feelings have given me a lot of inspiration for my story. Yep, you heard me. The story that is full of plot holes and frustrating twists and characters who don't do as there told and dragons who aren't where they're suppose to be EVER. Guys, this story is a mess. Every time I step back to take a better look I think to myself, you know what? I'm not exactly sure where  I was heading with this. I have the general idea but I'm  not exactly sure how to get it there. But here is what I do know.

The Dark Elves and the Fey had their last battle, the Dark Elves were caged up deep beneath the core of the earth, but now, after hundreds of years, they are breaking free. The only people who can stop it are an outcast boy, a failed Guardian, a rebel apprentice, a pirate's son and two brothers who have been branded traitors to the crown.

Look-e there! I have a Plot!!!!!!! I've been having to go back and do a lot of revising, and I've trashed a couple chapters which bore no point to the story, but otherwise I haven't been able to progress at all. My characters are starting to get angry with me. They're starting to talk to me. They wake me up in the wee hours of the night and drag me from bed to make me tell their story. When it ends up as editing and revising, they sit next to me, breathing down my neck and making me nervous. There is one character in particular that I have become incredibly fond of, who has a bad habit of running of without permission. He's too brave for his own good and he has a problem with loyalty. Seriously, he is incredibly loyal, I've never written anyone quite so loyal. He's maddeningly loyal, that's what he is.  And he makes promises, dangerous promises that can't always be kept.

I hate him *headdesk*

Besides my writing I've been just kind of lazing about. I've started doubling up in school so I can have some vacation time in March because a very special friend is coming out and I don't want to have work while she is here. I hate doubling up. I spend hours in my room and when I finally emerge my hands are cold almost beyond fixing. Backrooms man, they are the worst. They're like you're own private Antarctic. My room is so cold that you can usually see your air in it. Its no fun. Good thing I have my trust brown hoodie. That thing is freakin AWESOME. I don't know what I'd do without it

Oh, I've restarted Jillian Michaels. I missed how strong it made me feel and how I was able to run without panting, and I missed feeling energetic. It actually isn't so bad this time.I still feel shaky and weak when I finish, but I've found a good way to push myself through. I just think of a fictional character I especially hate and vent my anger into the exercise. It works, truly it does.

I'm gonna end with that, cause' I've got nothing more to say.

God Bless!

Monday, February 3, 2014

"I will not forget one line of this, not one day, I swear."


Sometimes I feel like Shawn when I talk about my acting. Then I wonder how crazy my friends must think I am. And then I wonder how crazy I am.


I'm a bit depressed because tonight there were auditions for The Man of La Mancha and .... I didn't go. I missed it.

There were a few reasons. One, I was sick for most of January and was unable to sing till about last week. I had little, to no preparation leading up to auditions. And then I just.... didn't. I kind of freaked myself out, because I got this terrifying image of myself auditioning without preparation.

And I was like, Nope! that's not happening! I swear next time I'll prepare and be brave and audition, but auditioning in the Spur-of-the-moment seemed like a really bad idea.

And now I've run out of excuses and I feel even sadder. I SHOULD HAVE AUDITIONED!!!!!

Oh well, its too late now.

On the upside we have snow in our backyard again. I will admit I missed the snow. We've only had two storms all year. Its been cold and windy and cloudy, but we haven't had much snow at all. And aside from the fact that our town need the snow for business, I like looking out and seeing white tipped trees and snowy houses, not just mud and dead trees. I hate that.

I knew the warm-spell would never last. Its funny how the people in Tahoe react if we go more than a few months without snow. We're in sever DROUGHT! It will never snow AGAIN!!! They never seem to remember this happens regularly; we'll have a few hard winters in a row and few easy winters in a row. And there are always warm spells. As in 65 degrees in February. I'm pretty sure we're okay. and sure enough we've gotten our snowflakes back. The Ski Slopes are very pleased.
Something else pretty nifty happened. I know this family that owns a paddle shop in town, and just a couple days ago their father asked me how I'd feel having a summer job working the Paddle shop. I was taken a bit by surprise, so I didn't answer straight away. He interrupted my stunned silence and told me to think about it, I had months. So I did. And I plan to take him up on his offer. Its a good paying job, it would help me save up for acting and it would make me feel good about myself.
You know what? Thinking about this makes me feel jittery. Now I need tea to settle my nerves. Speaking of tea, have any of you have seen The Time of The Doctor? If not, careful as you read, I may have a few spoilers here..... -
 I have very mixed feeling about it. I want to watch it again and see if its better the second time around when you know what to expect and are prepared for it.  Honestly, I was expecting a lot worse. I sort of thought the Doctor was going to get trapped on Trenzalore and forced to finally battle the Silence. I was expecting this huge, epic, traumatizing and brutal episode with sobbing and screaming and moments of insane denial. What I got wasn't that. The Doctor and Clara were both brilliant and I loved it whenever they were together, they were amazing. But the episode it self left me feeling rather let down and disappointed. The Disclaimer here is that while we were watching it did keep glitching and freezing and there were a lot of people watching it, so there was a bit of shuffling going on, making it distracting to watch. But that aside, I went through that episode not sure what was going on or why. It felt like nothing happened for Fifty minutes, The Doctor changed and you were done.
I'm not saying it was all bad or anything. There were a bunch of small, sweet moments and the episode carried a lot of potential, but it wasn't built on enough. The 'villains' of the story were almost non-existent. There was altogether too little of the Doctor, and Silence NEVER FELL! That was upsetting because we've been having the climax of the Silence since his first episode. But the Silence were barely there. It was anit-climatic. The episode felt weak and without much of a point or plot, at least to me. Matt deserved a better than that. He was a fantastic Doctor and he deserved a proper, fantastic send off. His last scene on the TARDIS was very sad, though, I will give the episode that. His last moments were brilliant and emotional and I cried. Of course I cried. The Doctor was changing, he was leaving and I had to watch it happen, and it was upsetting. I found myself hysterical and giddy upon finishing the episode, which means it hurt me more than I thought it was while watching it. So that was all good. But.... Matt deserved better!
And that's all. I'm tired now. Its late, and getting late means I'll start to ramble and that is no good. So its better for all of us if I just go now. Cheerio Mates!!

Pile of good things

Pile of good things